He who makes a beast out of himself

10:01am: Holy overdose batman
anouther stupid furry in bad taste overdosed and made us all look bad. saturday if you missed it a certian some one mixxed alittle to much booze with his cocktail of barbituiants and opiates and fucking OD'd right in front of the main desk. i feel so bad for the hotel staff. no wonder furfright needs a new hotel every couple years. other then all the wierd ass people i had to avoid i had alot of fun seeing old friends and hanging out. wish i could of seen more of you guys but no worrys, im always around to hang out and party with any one interested in seeing more of me.

11:48am: i thought we where friends

9:35am: nightmares
i have had alot of bad things happen to me in my life and breaking up with lindsey was one of the less painfull things i have had to deal with. I have never had nightmares about anything in my life since i was to young to rememeber. Can some one please just tell me why i can't get her out of my head. Every damn night is anouther dream about her. its ether a bad dream or a really good dream . I think the good dreams are the worset becuase when i wake up it just makes me sad to think it was only a dream.


I hate my waking life, i just want my dreams back

10:58pm: Dr horribles sing along blog
http://www.hulu.com/watch/28343/dr-horribles-sing-along-blog#s-p1-st-i0

if you haven't seen it yet you really sould

11:04am: great love for some one i lost

Lindsey graves the most beautiful girl i have ever met. I can't explain it but the momment in this picture, the first time i saw her, i knew she was better then any other women in the world. Lindsey is the nicest and sweetest girl you could ever meet but her life is filled with alot of sadness. I fell deeply in love with her and i wanted only the best i could give her becuase i knew she deserved it. We had a long relationship, not the longest i have ever had with a girl but deff the most meaningful. Some of the happyest momments of my life where with her. lindsey and I are now apart and its all becuase of me. I did somethings that is unforgivable and now she hates me so much she can't even look at me. I only had love for you lindsey but in my own rage and depression I didn't think clearly and i frogot how i really felt about you. I am completly heartbroken. Im not heartbroken becuase im lonely, the thing that really make me sad is the fact that I destroyed the greatest thing in my life and there is nothing i can do that will ever fix it. Since we have been apart every single night i have dreamed about the times we where still together. It makes me happy to think that if anything at all i can still see u in my dreams and remeber the good times. I miss you more then u can imagine and i will never stop loving you.


If only death was really a lucid dream that could last forever.Then that would truely be heaven.

10:50pm: been a long time since a left u, with a dope rhym to step to
TAKE THAT!! BITCHS

2:49pm: im not an alcholic

my family got me a bottle of tequila(good stuff) triple sec margirita mix and a blender for xmas............ i quess my family wants me to be an alcholic. so i better make sure not to disapoint. tobad the bottle of tequila broke on the curb a few feet away from my house :( and the liquer store are closed today. i quess i will have to wait till tommorrow to celebrate xmas.

12:25pm: HURRAY for da snow! can't wait to get outside and make a big snow cat for the apartment. i hope u all look forward to seeing it at the party

7:08pm: PARTY!

PARTY TIME! P-A-R-T-   Y? becuase its alrdy the second week of December and friday is just around the corner. that means its time to clean up the place, setup the bar, prepare the food and try to get some new faces to show up this month. thats where u come in! if any one wants to spend friday or the whole weekend in west hartford CT chillen with the great scourge and all his misguided yet wonderful friends then drop me a line and i will gladly send u some info about the party. email is bobsilver2001@yahoo.com aim is unmasked dem0n and my number is 860-218-7218. there will be  movies and games set up on the projectors and plenty of random bits of entertainment through out the day plus lots of booze and food to keep every one smiling and have a good time.

2:02pm: no more car

my car desided it had enough of my abuse and died on me on my way home yesterday. over heated and blew a gasket in the engine. luckly i was close to an exit when it happen. had to walk to a pay phone call my mom(only number i can remember) and have her call AAA for me. now im drivng around an old POS volvo im borrowing from my parents untill i buy a new car. RIP Mr. Buick , i will always remember the fun we had.

2:24pm: Cheese and Pie with scourge and kelth

Last night was a blast! the diner meet was kinda lame bec ause all the NE furs got scared off by the cold and half the ones that came to the meet went to the movies 2 hours after the meet started. i kinda wanted to go to the movies but the golden compass didn't seem like a very entertaining movie other then the polar bears and i lost track of time talking with turk, metal and the new guy. after a few hours of walking around and chatting we decided to go back to the apartment for booze and video games. On the way home from the diner kelth decided for some crazy reason to roll down the windows so i put my head out the window to scream into the air and my hat flew off. it was hilarious we couldn't stop laughing the whole way home. When we got back we played some  GH3 untill turk droped his contact. luckily i had saline sultion so he could put in his eye and clean his lens with. unlucky for turk i ened up giving him the wrong bottle and he squirted hydrogine proroxide (for disinfecting contact lens) into his eye. after hearing screams of pain from the bathroom i realized what i did and rushed in with the right bottle of saline sultion. poor turk, im sorry.  after all the crazy eye drama was resolved we went snack shopping then watched TV untill turk went home and me turk and kelth passed out.


This morning we all decided to do some shopping....well sorta. we went to blue ball sq that new mall in west hartford. drove around a bit then realized it sucked so we went to stop and shop. we bought 3 pies 5 different cheeses, peperoni and some crackers then declared it cheese and pie day. When we got home we set every thing up on the table got a gallon of milk and had a feast. OF CHEESE then PIE!

I can only imagine what sort of crazyness is going to happen tonight when my buddy casey comes over and we take a bunch of mushrooms at like 10pm till some time early sunday morning. .........................i love the weekends

2:13pm: Trans siberian orchestra
 i can't belive i almost forgot that Trans Siberian Orchestra is coming to hartford on the 9th. any one going? any one wanna go ? I will probably go if i can find some one to come with me. 

2:18pm: party is finaly over

every one went home and i finally got some sleep so that means the party has come to an end......witch isn't necessarily a bad thing. party started off fun friday night lots of booze and people and every one seemed to socialize great. Kat, wolfen, tally, lercirk and molton all stayed for the party on saturday and rex returned and brought bubby along with. but the party took a turn for the worse because every one was in a trance watching robot chicken and south park all day and i was having a serious emo brake down and contemplating suicide the whole night. sunday was alright i woke up around 2 when every one went home then i searched for food went back to sleep(not for long unfortunately) woke up and broke down crying again untill i fell asleep around 9 or 10 oclock. It really sucked, i wish i could of spent some more time with my friends and less time tripping on doc for 30 hours then avoiding every one because i couldn't handle my own feeling.  i hope the people that came enjoyed them self thats really the only reason i have these partys. Next time will be alot more fun. Next month i think im going to take control of the party and set up a few activities to keep people away from mindless TV, i was just too burnt out and depressed to really do anything on saturday or sunday.

1:06pm: Its that time of the month again

PARTY TIME! P-A-R-T-   Y? becuase its alrdy the second week of November and friday is just around the corner. that means its time to clean up the place, setup the bar, prepare the food and try to get some new faces to show up this month. thats where u come in! if any one wants to spend friday or the whole weekend in west hartford CT chillen with the great scourge and all his misguided yet wonderful friends then drop me a line and i will gladly send u some info about the party. email is bobsilver2001@yahoo.com aim is unmasked dem0n and my number is 860-218-7218. there will be  movies and games set up on the projectors and plenty of random bits of entertainment through out the day plus lots of booze and food to keep every one smiling and have a good time.

2:19pm: 99 red ballons
 99 Luftballons
Auf ihrem Weg zum Horizont
Hielt man fuer UFOs aus dem All
Darum schickte ein General
Eine Fliegerstaffel hinterher
Alarm zu geben, wenn es so war
Dabei war da am Horizont
Nur 99 Luftballons

2:23pm: party time
 P-A-R-T....Y? Becuase its been a month and its damn well time for anouther kickass furry party. me and my roomie kelth are hosting anouther party this upcoming friday at our apartment. there is going to be plenty of booze games and entertain for every one and plenty of crash space ( i don't want any drunk furs driving home!! ) If u wanna come to the party email me for directions bobsilver2001@yahoo.com or just call my cell 860-218-7218.
we will be serving some food.....i think kelth is making pierogis and i was going to whip up something also, but if any one wants soda or other snacks u need to bring them.

6:07pm: fuck the world!
 "The world can go to the devil as long as i have my cup of tea"
-Adolf Hitler

6:51pm: Grrr

Alright i got some time :P for some fucked up reason today has been hectic....i normally have very chill days. Alot of running around and work but im done now. i finaly got teh interweb installed in my swim trunks yesterday. it really keeps the COX firmly secured in my network. if any one doesn't alrdy know...and sadly im sure no body does, there is a party at me and kelths new appartment. and i just turned 21 last weekend but im celebrating it this friday. ALOT OF BOOZE! :P....wow! does $450 of alchol make me seem more like an alcholic or more like an entripanier trying to open a bar.....in his apartment :P i decided to try some thing random and crazy today for the party, so i made a fruit salsa...its different, but it sould be tasty with the cinnamon sugar tortilla chips im going to make tomorrow after work. i was going to do beer pong at the party but im afraid im going to be the only one playing haha. well w/e i gotta put shit away and  go to sleepy.  

3:55pm: Teh Interwebbing!
 WOOT! today is the first day using teh web in the new apartment!!!! ....SHIT! im burning the food! i gotta get bqack to cooking i will try and make a real post later tonight but probably not im way to busy. hope i see u allz tommorrow :3 happy BDAY TO ME!

6:50pm: Party house
Woot finaly moved out of the house and in less then 10 hours i will be 21!!!!WOOT WOOT!  Me and kelth where going to have a  party this weekend but we decided to postpone it till next weekend because we don't have any furniture or any cable. We don't have any interwebs yet ether so im making this post from my friends house. we sould have teh webs on wensday or thursday so i will make anouther post then with more details about the party. if any one has any questions feel free to call me up 860-218-7218 or leave me a email and i will get back to u on wensday

2:40pm: ROAD TRIP!
Yesterday i woke up at 5am took a shower got dressed drank some coffee and headed out the door. I drove 360 miles down to virgina to pick up tomcat and 360 miles back so i can bring him back to CT for collage. It took about  7 hours to get there and even longer to get back.. it was about 11 at night when we got back to connecticut and we where both starving. All i ate before the drive was some crappy D&D sandwich and some coffee.  Once we got back to CT i decided on going out to dinner some where nice to get some super delicious meat!  :P So we went to this amazing sushi and hibatchi place on the turnpike called KOTO. when we got there it was about a hour and half before  they closed so  the two of us where like the only people there. We where greeted by the manager of the restaurant a very well dressed polite japanese gentlemen and we took at seat at one of the hibachi tables. I ordered us two tokyo teas (longisland ice tea+medori) and some really good sushi made with king crab, spicey tuna, avocado and topped with crunchy tempora to start us off.  Taking a look at the menu i was slightly disapointed,i i was hoping to find some kobe beef but i had to settle for filamon young. I order the most exspencive thing on the menu the KOTO special for 2. It included fried rice or noodles (we got both) Shrimp, chicken, scallops, filamon young and mixed vegitables. First came the show, he covered the cooktop with oil leaving a trail to the edge that he lit on fire with a lighter. He then did some crazy japanese spatula action that was just amazing. Then he tossed around an egg for awhile with the spatula then sliced it  in half and started to cook. He chopped up the egg into a million pieces when threw in the rice and oils and made friend rice for me. while he cooked he joked around alittle by pretending to squirt oil at us or whack us with one of the spatulas it was very amusing, at one point he took out a bobble head doll that he made piss oil all over the stove lighting it on fire. Next he cooked up the noodles for tomcat and some shrimp for the both of us. After the first part of our meal was served he started to cook the vegatables, scallops, chicken and the beef. The scallops where the best ive ever had and the beef was absolutly perfect. i was in heaven. After dinner and a show we split a some yummy fried greentea ice cream. the total bill ended up being 83 dollars with a well deserved tip of 15.


Gas and drinks for the long drive: $150, dinner for 2: $100, hanging out with tomcat again: priceless

10:26am: Anouther New Camera!

Somehow my nice new shiny sony cyber shot managed to crack its own screen with in a day of its purchase. it ok tho because i got it exchanged today at the store. i was still able to take a few goodpics at the party even tho i was was slighty inebrated and operating a broken camera. nothing worth posting tho. the party itself turned out to be alot more fun then exspected. at first it was just a tiny gathering but later in the night it officially became a party after rex put on his fursuit and arc put on the party helmat. well yesterday was sleep and recover day, today is damage control day so im going to work on cleaning up the cans and hiding all the alcohol thats left over. i wanna thank every one for showing up and bringing food and soda and having such a great time i hope we could do it again sometime when i get my own place.

3:00pm: New camera!

i went out and bought a camera today its a 8.1 MP sony cyber-shot w90. I haven't had a chance to use it yet but its all shiny and fancy looking i just love it. I can't wait to take hundreds of drunken random pics this weekend. i will post some of them on monday even if there just pictures of of the ground half covered by my thumb :P nah im a good photographer i have just never owned a camera of my own. photograhpy is probably going to take up a big chunk of my spare time, now that i can take pictures of all the random shit i find in my adventures and pictures of my cat doing funnythings :3. This gives me a great reason to excape from the mondand ruitien of sitting on the comp at my house and go out and explore what this pathetic town has to offer....welll maybe i will go to a different town. 

6:57pm: ozzfest is over
Ozzfest was awsome! so much better then last year. Lamb of god and Hatebreed where the two best bands there next to ozzy of course.  <object width="425" height="350"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/uY90VEXRIwA"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/uY90VEXRIwA" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="350"></embed></object> That was the intro to ozzy coming on stage.
 I was wicked soar on sunday after the concert, my whole body ached, mainly my neck. My neck is still soar today but its starting to feel better. Ive taken 4 showers so far to try to wash this damn shit out of my hair. i made libery spikes useing hair pomade(afro shit), the same stuff i used for my mohawk and there is still alot of it covering my hair.l its kinda cool looking tho. i don't need to comb it or anything thing,i just wake up and  its all messy and punky looking, i love it.

5:42pm: wow anouther post alrdy.....im on a roll

im all pumped up about ozzfest. only 16 more hours till the show starts.  It sould be a blast i just learned that lamb of god is replacing some other crappy band that dropped of the tour. with them on the line up added to hatebreed ozzy and static x deffinitly make this concert worth the ticket price :P hahaha well the tickets where free but it makes it worth paying 7 fucking dollers for a fountain drink. i don't even wanna know what food costs. If this year is anything like last years ozzfest im going to get complete heat exhaustion then get pumbled by elbows and flying people!.....yes there are flying people at ozzfest. i had one come out of no where and fall right on top of me. All and all its going to be an amazing day no matter how fucked up i get :3